suddenly it came back to me, that old song from Carpenter together it was memory of those innocent days in jr. school there were simple friendship and simple happiness those are always deep inside me no matter how long it has been since then i've never changed a bit, but everything else around changed a lot which always makes me upset i'm not living that ideal life as i wanted 10 years ago while i have to make it this way well, because this is much easier.. oops recap from the lyric, feeling myself a lonely clown now and then whatif some one come and rescue me? from all these hezitations, all these uncertainties let me know i am not alone anymore, i am living but not only living i don't want pain, i don't want pressure either, i might not want a marriage.. but if it comes with love, i'll take it all, for sure run and find someone loves me.. whoever..
